Lord, I've ignored this hurt in my heart for quite some time now. I've been putting on a front, because I have made progress but I stopped working for it. I stopped trying because I stopped wanting progress. I am so weak, Lord. I let what I think I desire take over my thoughts. You know what I truly want. You know what's best for me. I trust You but not like I ought to. It's not enough to say I trust You. My thoughts must reflect that trust. This is what I pray for. I pray that I fully lean on You. I know the point of this blog was to record things that make me feel better and inspiring things I've noticed about You but tonight it's a desperate cry. I can't calm my mind enough to make a coherent prayer so here I am attempting to type out what I want to say to You. I need You, Lord. I can't do this on my own despite how many times I keep trying to. Comfort me tonight Lord. Romance me like You have been all along, but open my eyes to it.
Let Your will be done, not mine.
Be my dream catcher, Lord.
Filter out the ones that do not coincide with Your will.
Only Your plan will bring true happiness.
Only Your plan will bring true peace.
I cannot wait for the day I can look back on this and thank You. You will heal my heart, and You will make clear Your path for me. Thank You in advance God. I love You.
Your love will comfort me tonight and always.