Dear God,
Why is it so hard for me to pray these days? I have so much to thank You for. I need to get back into the habit of writing to You. You are my whole world and I depend on You so greatly. You know my thoughts but You long to hear from me on my own will. I promise I desire to talk to You but I don't know why it is so difficult for me lately. It has been a long time since I have felt truly close to You. Am I avoiding a big decision I need to make? I am not having doubts. I know You are here with me just as much as when I feel close to You. I know it's not about how I feel but maybe You are trying to tell me something. I pray tonight not that You would make it more clear, as I am sure You are, but that You may open my eyes and heart to whatever it is You want to tell me. I need You Lord. I want to be close to You. Closer and more in sync. You are the one from whom all good things come. I praise You for that and for You are in my life and I praise You for Your presence on this trip. I pray for Your healing hand to be placed on Olivia's ankle and Emily's foot. I pray you continue to strengthen your angels who are surrounding us in transit and in classes and in our rooms. I thank You for their presence and for Your presence within each of our hearts. I pray each of the girls on the trip catch a glimpse of how You are making yourself known to them. I pray for the decisions they make and the thoughts they think. I pray they find themselves getting closer to leaning on You and desiring to know You. I thank You for each one of them and I am sorry for when I have bad talked any of them. They are your children and I love them, though not as I should. I am weak and covered in sin. I praise You for Your continuous renewal and forgiveness. I pray You help me find the strength to come and meet You in adoration at least a few mornings. I cannot do it without Your strength and will for I am a weak human. But a weak human who loves You more than I express. I am sorry I do not tell You enough. I love You Lord and I desire to live for and with You. Always.
Amen.
Love,
Emily
Wednesday, June 25, 2014
London: week 1
LONDON so far :)
Thursday
Performance: Bad Boys of Dance
Peacock Theatre
Friday
Class: Contemporary
Sonia Rafferty
Performance: Rian
Sadler Wells
Saturday
West End Live
Class: Michael Jackson Jazz
Anthony King
Show: Once <3
The choreography of the musicians was the most moving and wholesome performance I have ever had the privilege to experience. When "offstage" the performers were sitting in chairs on the outskirts of the stage so they were never not apart of the show. Use of props was intelligent- 2 chairs: at a table; 3 chairs: a bed. The transitions were seamless and carefully choreographed; wholly entertaining. Scene changes were quick, purposeful, part of the show. All of a sudden something new would be set up and performers would appear.
Sunday
Because the loaf of bread is one, we, though many, are one body, for we all partake in one loaf."
-1 Cor 10:17
Performance: Ubu Roi
Barbican (COOLEST THEATRE)
Monday
"Stop judging, that you may not be judged. For as you judge, so will you be judged, and the measure with which you measure will be measured out to you." -Matthew 7:1-5
Class: Jazz/Modern
Dare to Love - Ane Brun
Performance: 4D Sidi Larbi
Sadler Wells
Tuesday
"This day I set you over nations and over kingdoms...to build and to plant." -Jeremiah 1:9-10
Class: Adv Contemp Ballet
Tory (LAST NAME!?)
A huge and diverse class of about 50 people (mainly late 20s and older). Love how no one talks on the sides or anything but also was not an intimidating atmosphere. We were welcomed in and fit in pretty well. The teacher did not really give corrections but it was perfectly okay with me surprisingly. I finally let go of feeling like i had to prove myself and just took class for my benefit.
Thursday
Performance: Bad Boys of Dance
Peacock Theatre
Friday
Class: Contemporary
Sonia Rafferty
Performance: Rian
Sadler Wells
Saturday
West End Live
Class: Michael Jackson Jazz
Anthony King
Show: Once <3
The choreography of the musicians was the most moving and wholesome performance I have ever had the privilege to experience. When "offstage" the performers were sitting in chairs on the outskirts of the stage so they were never not apart of the show. Use of props was intelligent- 2 chairs: at a table; 3 chairs: a bed. The transitions were seamless and carefully choreographed; wholly entertaining. Scene changes were quick, purposeful, part of the show. All of a sudden something new would be set up and performers would appear.
Sunday
Because the loaf of bread is one, we, though many, are one body, for we all partake in one loaf."
-1 Cor 10:17
Performance: Ubu Roi
Barbican (COOLEST THEATRE)
Monday
"Stop judging, that you may not be judged. For as you judge, so will you be judged, and the measure with which you measure will be measured out to you." -Matthew 7:1-5
Class: Jazz/Modern
Dare to Love - Ane Brun
Performance: 4D Sidi Larbi
Sadler Wells
Tuesday
"This day I set you over nations and over kingdoms...to build and to plant." -Jeremiah 1:9-10
Class: Adv Contemp Ballet
Tory (LAST NAME!?)
A huge and diverse class of about 50 people (mainly late 20s and older). Love how no one talks on the sides or anything but also was not an intimidating atmosphere. We were welcomed in and fit in pretty well. The teacher did not really give corrections but it was perfectly okay with me surprisingly. I finally let go of feeling like i had to prove myself and just took class for my benefit.
Sunday, June 1, 2014
ownership.
This weekend was my first recital with InMotion School of Dance. What an insanely different experience than with Studio K. Both are phenomenally special in their own ways. The transition from recitals with Studio K to InMotion was interesting. It's funny how we always first think of different as bad. My first thoughts were negative such as "This studio is not as serious" or as fun or whatever my negative thoughts were. I even complained to my friends because they perform ballet with classic story lines which I guess I thought was weird but the truth was it's just different. How much I regret sharing my negative thoughts when I was transitioning. I am so thankful for this past weekend as it showed me that no matter the level of involvement or the format or content of the recital, one thing will always be the same: the preciousness of His children who perform in these shows. Preciousness may not be a word but I could care less because it is exactly the word I need right now haha. The children are obviously completely different than those from Studio K because they have been raised in different states. But their sweet smiles, surprising moments of sharing, hilarious stream of conscious thoughts that get blurted out, and all their crazy antics remind me why I love working recitals. And that's the same anywhere I may go.
This experience taught me to take ownership of new challenges or jobs I take on. Whether it's with the freshmen, or D4L, or a new studio, even if I am not used to it yet I need to speak about it confidently and in a positive way. I hate this feeling of "wow this really taught me a lesson." Not that it's a bad thing at all it's great! It's just that I would rather have a feeling of "I am so glad I had confidence in this undertaking, it really came through for me."
Ah well, such is life and such is my fickle heart always resisting change. Both studio owners are role models, and completely different ones at that, who I am so lucky to have in my life in such a supportive way. I know with full confidence these experiences will serve me well one day if I am ever fortunate enough to own my own studio someday.
This experience taught me to take ownership of new challenges or jobs I take on. Whether it's with the freshmen, or D4L, or a new studio, even if I am not used to it yet I need to speak about it confidently and in a positive way. I hate this feeling of "wow this really taught me a lesson." Not that it's a bad thing at all it's great! It's just that I would rather have a feeling of "I am so glad I had confidence in this undertaking, it really came through for me."
Ah well, such is life and such is my fickle heart always resisting change. Both studio owners are role models, and completely different ones at that, who I am so lucky to have in my life in such a supportive way. I know with full confidence these experiences will serve me well one day if I am ever fortunate enough to own my own studio someday.
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