Lord, thank You for Your constant care. You have never once left me, despite all the numerous times I have failed to truly trust You. For the hundredth time I realize I need to let You heal the hurts in my heart and in my relationships on YOUR time, not mine. I'm sorry I try to control my life so much. It isn't actually mine and I'm sorry I act so selfishly sometimes.
It can certainly be lonely here sometimes, so thank You for literally always being here for me. And thank You SOOOO MUCHH for Sarah and Becca and the time we spent together tonight. I needed that more than anything to remind me why I'm happy here. I seriously feel Your presence more strongly when I'm around them and I could never thank You enough for putting me in that small group.
As You can see my concentration has been completely broken. I'm not trying to blame my roommate or anything but...yeah. I was so excited to get to write to You and now it just feels weird. Thank You for speaking to me through that book. I needed to hear that so badly. My hope is in You Lord, and with You there is no room for depression or self-pity. Please continue to work in my heart as well as his. I do not even know how he is with You anymore and it makes me sad to see the lack of progress but all I can do it pray for him and know that You will never give up on him. I love You Lord and I always will. I want to love You better, please come nearer to me this semester. Help me to keep my eyes and my heart fixed on You, for only You know what I truly need. Amen <3