Dear God,
Why is it so hard for me to pray these days? I have so much to thank You for. I need to get back into the habit of writing to You. You are my whole world and I depend on You so greatly. You know my thoughts but You long to hear from me on my own will. I promise I desire to talk to You but I don't know why it is so difficult for me lately. It has been a long time since I have felt truly close to You. Am I avoiding a big decision I need to make? I am not having doubts. I know You are here with me just as much as when I feel close to You. I know it's not about how I feel but maybe You are trying to tell me something. I pray tonight not that You would make it more clear, as I am sure You are, but that You may open my eyes and heart to whatever it is You want to tell me. I need You Lord. I want to be close to You. Closer and more in sync. You are the one from whom all good things come. I praise You for that and for You are in my life and I praise You for Your presence on this trip. I pray for Your healing hand to be placed on Olivia's ankle and Emily's foot. I pray you continue to strengthen your angels who are surrounding us in transit and in classes and in our rooms. I thank You for their presence and for Your presence within each of our hearts. I pray each of the girls on the trip catch a glimpse of how You are making yourself known to them. I pray for the decisions they make and the thoughts they think. I pray they find themselves getting closer to leaning on You and desiring to know You. I thank You for each one of them and I am sorry for when I have bad talked any of them. They are your children and I love them, though not as I should. I am weak and covered in sin. I praise You for Your continuous renewal and forgiveness. I pray You help me find the strength to come and meet You in adoration at least a few mornings. I cannot do it without Your strength and will for I am a weak human. But a weak human who loves You more than I express. I am sorry I do not tell You enough. I love You Lord and I desire to live for and with You. Always.
Amen.
Love,
Emily